The quintessential new year's resolution: Lose weight. I'm no different - it's on my list. After Kate's diagnosis, I stopped exercising and started stuffing my gullet at every chance as a way, I guess, of dealing with the stress. I gained about 35 pounds. By the time last spring rolled around, I was not feeling too good about myself. I was easily winded, in part because I was carrying around a lot of extra weight and in part because I was not in the best physical shape. So, I started exercising and trying to eat at least a little better. Since then I have lost around 17 pounds, but feel I need to lose another 27 or so.
I am a hopeless snacker. Evenings are the worst. I'm always stuffing something, usually not especially healthy, in my mouth. I suffer from depression and anxiety and I'm pretty sure my snacking is a form of self-medication, of comfort.
I'm not a big breakfast eater. My therapist, who has in the past worked in the area of eating disorders, has suggested that my nocturnal noshing may at least partially be coming from skipping my morning meal. So, she has suggested I eat a more complete breakfast and see if that helps my post-prandial munching. So far, it has not had much of an impact in terms of how much I eat, but I do seem to have lost four pounds in the past week. Maybe we're onto something here.
Meanwhile I continue to exercise. I try to get in a 40-50 minute cardio workout at least three times a week, though 4-6 is more the norm. My workouts have become important in two respects. First, this is the only time during the day I don't live with that omnipresent knot in my stomach and, secondly, I feel a sense of accomplishment at the end of it, however fleeting the feeling.
So, hopefully starting today, I will try to minimize my snacking and keep on with the exercise to see if I can shed the extra 27 lbs. and see if I can bring myself to 190 lbs. I hope blogging about it will motivate me. I'll try to post once a month about my progress.
And on a different note, Happy New year to all my Chinese readers and friends. The year of the snake seems to be somewhat inauspicious, but hopefully everyone will come out the other end happier and healthier. All the best.